Some News

posted by troblsomtwins829 on 11th Sep 2020, 8:15 PM

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Hey Guys,

I know I try to keep everything fairly upbeat and have been making an effort to ward away most of the news and other items this year has brought us; and I do hope it's been working, to some extent. To have this site and the Discord be a place where we can try and pretend the outside world isn't happening, if only for a little while. A safe haven for the weary, all that philisophacle dilly dally.

I try not to bring my personal life into these updates, but I feel like you guys deserve to know now rather than on the next page update.

I learned about the beginning of the month that my Grandfather had contracted Covid 19 and had been in the hospital for several weeks up to that point. Now, we don't have the greatest relationship with him, namely because we've hardly been able to sit down and just talk to him for nearly my entire life. I actually reached out to him this last year to try and rekindle any sense of bond we might still have, and he actually reached back! We've exchanged letters and I was hoping to be able to have a chance to have that sit-down shoot-the-breeze- type conversation one day.

That day will now never come.
My grandfather passed away last night from his illness and the strain it put on his body.

I have cycled through so many emotions in the last twenty four hours that I'm not even sure waht day it is right now. I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm sad, I'm blank and I feel so full and so hollow at the same time. Sleep was not an option, but I did make myself go to work because if I didn't, I'd spend the entire day wallowing in my sadness and then feel even worse because I wasn't productive.
My bosses are aware of the situation and were kind enough to keep me off my register and had me help them out with little tasks that needed done.
Updates will continue as normal for about two weeks because the pages and comments have already been posted
I will still try to get the next batch finished on time, but I have removed the Monday update from that week to be on the safe side. No, it isn't healthy, I acknowledge that; but I honestly do not know what to do, and sticking to my guns is the only response I've got going for me right now.

Thank you for your understanding. I want you guys to know just how much I love you and your support. Each and every one of you is so special to me.
Please hug your loved ones and pets tightly, let them know you love them too.

I hope to see you all again soon,

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Greyskyart on 11th Sep 2020, 8:23 PM

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Sorry for your loss, my grandfather passed three years ago so sadly I understand. I know it's hard and that's alright, the best you can do is take your time. We all can only hope the best and I hope the best for you.

troblsomtwins829 on 11th Sep 2020, 10:08 PM

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Thank you very much, Grey. I really appreciate it <3

Sky Hooves on 12th Sep 2020, 5:00 AM

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Damn. Sorry for your loss. I can only wish you the best and hope you will stay strong. And with that, I mean to sometimes just cry and show your emotions, not to just bottle them up. That is also strength.

Take your time and don't overwork yourself to bury your feelings.

*Jumps through the screen and hugs you* We are all here for you.

troblsomtwins829 on 12th Sep 2020, 9:32 AM

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Thank you so much, Sky *hugs*
I've had a good bit of crying mixed in between the angry outbursts and creation/destruction. Thankfully Pup is there to cuddle when I get too worn out to do more

Garga123 on 12th Sep 2020, 11:31 PM

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I'm sorry for your loss.

Allow yourself a moment to grieve and take your time to get back onto your feet. You deserve time.

For what it's worth (coming from an internet stranger), thank you for sharing, it must've been difficult to express such personal pain.

Hope you're staying strong.

Zor15 on 13th Sep 2020, 7:47 PM

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Sorry for your loss. Take your time to grieve.